JERRY'S TESTIMONY (former Lutheran)
I was raised in a home with four other brothers and sisters. It was a typical home of divorced parents. We were a typical family that went to church on SUNday and learned nothing while we were there. I attended SUNday school and later on catechism classes which took place on Saturdays. I memorized all the commandments and articles and creeds etc., as I was told too, and was confirmed at 13. I thought this made you a Christian, so I considered myself as such from then on. I attended church with my parents, who forced us to go, without ever once introducing us to the God that we were hearing about. I can clearly remember the two faced people attending the church, those who would talk so sweet on SUNday and slit your throat on Monday. Even back then as a child I knew that this religious system of belief was a farce.
As soon as I was confirmed, I quit going to church because I was no longer forced. No one, in my adolescent years at church, ever introduced me to the God of the Bible, they just talked about Him when they took Him out of their box for a few hours, once a week.
Briefly; I had a very difficult life with a father and mother who didn't love me (at least they never once showed it), and a step mother who had to raise me. I never knew what love was except when I was in the presence of my grandmother and a few relatives we would visit from time to time. I was a very rebellious child and hated the world from the word "go'. I made a girl pregnant when I was in my late teens and that was the beginning of the end for me. I couldn't handle the paternity suit and court battle that pursued from the moment my daughter was born. I was left all alone and abandoned by my family, to go through a legal system that tore me apart. I had nowhere to turn to, so I turned to drugs. I became a hippie. I did everything I could to cover up the pain I felt from the trauma of my horrifying childhood with women and drugs. In my later years the drugs changed to alcohol, either way, Satan had me by the throat.
I got married at 23 and divorced 2 years later. I got married again years later and managed to hold on to that marriage for 14 years. My wife and I had four other children of which we were very proud. In about 1994 we got divorced and I lost everything, including what felt like my soul. It was that year that a bunch of organizations had sent out the video movie called "Jesus". I insisted my entire family watch the movie so they would learn about the Bible, but, like my father before me, I had not introduced my family to the Messiah, because I didn't personally know Him. At the end of the movie, when everyone else was gone, I accepted Jesus into my heart.
It wasn't long after this that the bottom fell out of my second marriage and I needed to declare bankruptcy. I had to somehow try and start over again, even though my friends and family had left me in the dust. To this day most of my family and children think I am crazy, and avoid my like the plague. They can't accept the fact that the change in my life is for real, no matter how many years go by.
Even though I had invited Messiah into my heart I still thought of suicide hourly, not daily, or weekly, because of the hundreds of demons controlling my life. I had no friends, no money, etc., and felt lower than a snakes belly in the grass.
I remembered people saying that if you committed suicide you would surely go to hell, so I came up with an idea. Every time I approached railroad tracks, I refused to look if there was a train coming. I convinced myself that if I got hit by a train in such a manner it wouldn't be suicide and I might get into heaven.
For some reason I got this urge to go see my God-mother and her new husband, whom I hadn't seen in years. They invited me in and listened to my story. They knew my history, so they understood what and where I came from. They sat me down, prayed over me and asked if I wanted to know Jesus. I prayed the sinners prayer again and felt something happen to me. I then explained that all my life I was in the rain and never ever saw the sunshine. They asked me if I would sit down and watch a video with them. I sat there and watched a curses and blessings video with them. I sat glued to the chair trying to figure out how this man knew ALL my problems and knew what I was going through. He was talking directly at me as if he knew me personally. It blew my mind, because everything he said had happened to me and he said all I had to do was pray this prayer and I would be released from the curses. I couldn't believe that anything that had ruined my life for 45 years could be removed that simply, but Jean and Leonard prayed the curse removal prayer with me as we listened to the man on the video. I came ALIVE like I can't attempt to explain. I was so dumb founded, I was speechless. We talked all night and they asked me to come back the next day. We sat down and watched Dereks Princes deliverance videos and again I did what he said to do at the end, and I was delivered from a houseful of demons. From that point on my life changed emphatically and I had received my first potato chip. I have been grabbing at the potato chips in the bag ever since and cannot and will not stop.
I found out years later that Yahveh had used Derek Prince to help me even though his teaching had enough flaws in it to drive a truck through. Yah knew that I was searching for truth and used those in my path to help me even though they themselves were mostly immature and ignorant. I rented a little house trailer and lived like a hermit, staying away from all friends and relatives for fear of more embarrassment and rejection. I spent the next 6 years studying the Bible and every biblically related book, video and audio I could get my hands on, 8-12 hours a day. I managed to survive because of a small company I had with a book called "Lakes Of Alberta Directory" and by slowly selling off everything I owned as rent and various payments came due. Over a 6 month period I did self deliverance, and felt hundreds of demons leave me because of the power and authority of the Spirit of Yahveh.
My mentors had told me to study the Bible for a while before I looked for a church to attend, so their advice I followed. They told me that there were few churches that teach the truth, and to beware. This I took to heart. It's sad when I look back now, the same two people (mentors), who had warned me about not getting sucked in to following unbiblical church teaching, were involved in one of the most ungodly churches in our area, under the guise of Christianity. Hebr. 5:12-14 "For though by this time you ought to be teachers, you have need again for someone to teach you the elementary principles of the oracles of Yahveh, and you have come to need milk and not solid food. For everyone who partakes only of milk is not accustomed to the word of righteousness, for he is a babe. But solid food is for the mature, who because of practice have their senses trained to discern good and evil".
I went back to the Lutheran church I had attended temporarily when I was married and living on an acreage. I met some beautiful people at this church and became a regular. Although I was doing every religious thing I could think of, something was missing in my walk with God. I was receiving more and more revelation and the floodgates of rema were pouring into my soul and spirit. I was pursuing the spiritual warfare ministry with every part of my being. I was anxious to learn and share in any and everything I could experience.
It didn't take me long to figure out that it is much easier to go with the current than against it, but I persisted in following the leading of the Spirit of Yahveh, no-matter what fell around me.
I had a hard time handling the family issues that were going on all around me. I felt sorry for all my children, parents, as well as surviving sisters. I offered my children to Yah because I knew that I was incapable of dealing with the emotions and feelings that tore me apart inside. Yah took away the pain and reminded me of a very scary but true verse. Matt. 10:34-39 "Do not think that I came to bring peace on the earth; I did not come to bring peace, but a sword. "For I came to SET A MAN AGAINST HIS FATHER, AND A DAUGHTER AGAINST HER MOTHER, AND A DAUGHTER-IN-LAW AGAINST HER MOTHER-IN-LAW; and A MAN'S ENEMIES WILL BE THE MEMBERS OF HIS HOUSEHOLD. "He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; and he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me." I had to let my children figure it out for themselves, with Yah helping in every way He could. This is an ongoing process, and I pray that all of my family will someday come into the sunshine like I have, and receive the blessings of El Shaddai. Putting my family totally in Yah's hands and walking away so that I can help others be set free has got to be the hardest thing I have ever done in my life.
Even though I was attending a dead Lutheran church, Yahveh allowed me to be filled with the Holy Spirit (Baptized in the Holy Spirit with the outward evidence of tongues), giving me power and authority and the use of all the gifts of the spirit written about in our Bible.
I kept going back to my church and wanted to even stay overnight in the pew just so I could learn about the King of Kings. I pretended I was satisfied at the church, but something inside of me was telling me to "get out of there". I resisted the Holy Spirit, who was talking to me, because everyone said, "don't forsake the gathering of the people", "come and share with us in the church". I didn't realize at that time that those verses in Hebr. 10:24-27 were talking about the assembling of REAL Believers for Yah's FEASTS, not for the assembling of some organized pagan religious group (supposedly PROTESTING), on a Roman Catholic SUNday sabbath. Finally, one day during another dead sermon, the Holy Spirit spoke to me so loud I couldn't ignore. The Spirit of Yah told me; "get out of this church, it has nothing to offer you". I listened and walked away, never to set foot in the sanctuary again. It was one of the smartest things I ever did in my walk of truth.
Just before I left the pagan Lutheran palace, I was immersed in a baptism (mikvah) ceremony. Yahveh gave me a scripture verse at my baptism that I will never forget. This verse has been the backbone of my ministry. Jer. 1:4-6 "Now the word of Yahveh came to me saying, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you a prophet to the nations." Then I said, "Alas, Adonai, Yahveh! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth". But Adonai said to me, "Do not say, I am a youth, Because everywhere I send you, you will go, And all that I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to deliver you, "declares Adonai". Then Adonai stretched out His hand and touched my mouth, and Adonai Yahveh said to me, Behold I have put my words in your mouth". This word was confirmation because of a similar verse Yahveh had given me two years earlier. Jer. 1:17-19 "Now gird up your loins, and arise, and speak to them all which I command you. Do not be dismayed before them, lest I dismay you before them. Now behold, I have made you today as a fortified city, and as a pillar of iron and as walls of bronze against the whole land, to the kings of Judah, to its princes, to its priests and to the people of the land. And they will fight against you, but they will not overcome you, for I am with you to deliver you, declares Adonai."
I was then lead to a couple teaching about Hebraic roots, SUNday afternoons in the back of a local restaurant. After hearing them speak of the true Hebrew meanings of various words and passages, I was drawn like a nail to a magnet to learn more about the Jewishness of the scriptures. Without a basic understanding of the Hebrew thoughts and idioms used in Hebraic text, it is impossible to comprehend the proper context of the Good Book.
This, as it turns out, would be a major stepping stone in my quest to seek the truth. I then combined the things I was learning about warfare, with the Hebraic truth and the doors began to open to the truth Yah had waiting for me. I offered myself and all my Isaac's to El Gibor and He has been leading me into His truth at an incredible rate ever since.
I realized that I had been in Babylon (Rev. 18:4"And I heard another voice from heaven saying, "Come out of her my people, that you may not participate in her sins and that you may not receive of her plagues") since I joined the mainline church and the best thing I ever did was to get out before it was too late. Now I sit back and watch other innocent but ignorant people like my old self, suffer in the name of Jesus (Je-Zeus). It hurts to see such deception and paganism existing in the so-called Christian churches today, but Yah said this would happen, and here we are.
Satan knows that the POWER is in the NAME of the Most High. He has managed to fool most people claiming to be Christians, for many years, but there is a remnant alive that is rising up to understand the truth that He has available to us through His Holy Spirit. If we dare to actually follow Him, rather than talk about, pray about, and sing about following Him and His Torah, He has much power and authority to offer us, His priests. Obedience is the key that most refuse to deal with. "Faith without works (obedience) is dead".
The Bible says that many of the elect will even be deceived and we can see it happening all around us today. Those of us who are His peculiar people of the way, will continue to learn and follow the Mighty One of Israel, while the others around us flounder in the manmade doctrine and dogma of the mainline churches. We will prosper in the fruit and gifts of the Spirit, while the fraudulent ministries become more dead than they already are. We will be alive and active while most churches spiritually die. We will witness miracles of The Holy One, while the pagan palaces' entertain the people in the pews with soul power and demon forces of the adversary. We will continue to honor the Saturday Sabbath that Yahveh's commandments speak of, even if the masses celebrate the day of the SUN god, SUNday. We will follow His commandments of Torah from our circumcised heart even though the so-called Christians have replaced it with the "ten suggestions, if you please".